CZT
More than anything else.
For all the lost words trapped between my teeth and underneath my tongue

Terrror of being alone, terror of the darkness filling their imaginations with devils, terror of doing anything not in the manuals of good behaviour, terror of God's judgement, of what other people would say, of the law punishing any mistake, terror of trying and failing, terror of succeeding and having to live with the envy of other people, terror of loving and being rejected, terror of asking for a rise in salary, of accepting an invitation, of going somewhere new, of not being able to speak a foreign language, of not making the right impression, of growing old, of dying, of being pointed out because of one's defects, of not being pointed out because of one's merits, of not being noticed either for one's defects or one's merits.
Terror terror terror. Life was a reign of terror, in the shadow of a guillotine.

"Terrified" is way too underrated to describe the way im feeling now. Heart palpitations, shortness of breaths, butterflies. Oh god. After tmr, my life will hardly be the same.

So.. i've finally gotten my router changed and my wireless internet connection up and running. Never been happier having internet at every corner of the house.

And(!) booking for Jason Mraz concert starts tomorrow damn scared it gets sold out before i even book it :/

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