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CZT More than anything else. For all the lost words trapped between my teeth and underneath my tongue  |
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11:44 pm |
20091030   I'd never have thought that getting promoted would be my main concern before, since in the past, it was never a problem. Until now of course. Finally realised what a big difference it is. I truly doubt th fact that i have gotten this far has anything to do w my efforts at all, rather it is simply by luck that i scraped through, because pooks has been constantly praying for me. Got to work so much harder, starting soon. Quite saddening but im bent on not screwing up my As after the anxiety felt this time round. My school life has been officially taken over by PW. Frankly, i dont give a shit about it? Like okay, getting an A is of course perfect but i think a B will suffice. C of course is too much. I did quite a bit for this subj so it would be quite unreasonable to get a C. I would kill if it happens. Cant wait for the time where i can finally put this wretched subject aside. Much self reflection needed + learn to fix things instead of breaking them up. |