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CZT More than anything else. For all the lost words trapped between my teeth and underneath my tongue  |
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20100104            This was the last few big events of 2009. Mainly xmas and our 5th month. Xmas was at Sentosa w the girls away from the crowds and together w the food. We spent almost like half the night in the supermarket that some suggested we might as well just countdown in there. How typical, now tell me what's new? And i'll let the chef claim all the credits for our 5th while im only in charge of 2 teeny weeny potatoes w no toppings to go along because the boy dont even have butter in his house, how great. Skyride and luge after that (Y) Time time time, it passes so fast. Always had a problem w time. Cant believe how i'll be taking my A's next yr and spend my 18th studying for it. In all honesty, im scared, scared of what the new yr has in store for me. What will 2010 be without the customary self reflection post for the past yr right? (although i know how super late this is) 2009 was a year filled w changes for me. Stepped out of my comfort zone, away from all my friends and into a new school w no one close to around me. I've never felt so disoriented or misplaced ever in my life before. I rmb my mom telling me how JC life will be so fun and fulfilling and i only cursed at how untrue it is. Bore alot of grudges like taking a subj that nobody believed that i did - CLit and went through so much trouble of wanting to leave the school, talking to the vp because i thought i would be doomed for life. I know it frm the reactions i get, sigh. Met many new friends in JC when i thought i would be a loner_92 in Tj forever - soccer girlz and classmates, although im pretty much still out of the school scene. I dont even know what's what and who's who, alright you get the drift. Struggled to stay close and in contact w the only 7 friends that i thought i will have for my entire life. This must last ok? Talked to someone who lives at the back of my head and hated for 4 yrs in my life under an unexpected circumstance but somehow or another whom i love to death and cant imagine being without now. Really love you ♥♥ 2009 was more of an experimentation and learning kinda thing. I've learnt alot from my own boyf, Chris or Cy or whatever i know him as, about life and future, made me ponder more and reflect more. Sometimes i hate that he is so much more mature, more like someone entering the 30s rather than 20s. I've also learn how to take things in my stride, make lemons out of lemonade, chill, relax and not overreact. That some things are beyond control and some things just dont make sense.    So well, i had a great new year's eve and new year and im thankful for my beloved planner along w all the sacrifices that he'd made. Basically, we just had a full view of Marina Bay's fireworks and a little of Vivo's one through th windows in our little room. No fancy schmancy affair mainly cos he's just too tired. I only drifted off to sleep 3 hrs after he did, that pretty much explains how tired he was. Let's just say the waking part took alot of effort as well.. I guess what's left now will be to make the best out of the last week of holidays and start getting used to writing 10 at the end of each date on assignments and simply give the year my best shot, im sure it's workable. My new year resolution will be to not make any resolutions this year because srsly, who can even rmb half of it at the end of the day!? Ok .. wait! Maybe just one: remember to wear retainers everyday. This will surely not be forgotten for awhile. |