CZT
More than anything else.
For all the lost words trapped between my teeth and underneath my tongue

Been feeling so unproductive these few days other than the time i stayed home. Hmm actually im not sure if im unproductive or im just too ambitious. Wanting to complete this, this and this but actually the time i had would only be allowed for this. Yeah you get me..

So recently i've been v anal bout hny's wellbeing becos i rly cant take how he torture his body. We've been tgth for a yr plus but all i've been seeing is him getting skinnier, having to punch more holes beyond what's actually there on the belt and seeing his model-like thighs so much thinner than mine (!?), while i have just been piling on more weight since forever. It's like he'd passed on his fats to me and it ttly breaks my heart, in both ways. ):

He recently got himself yet another job bcos that boy is so money driven and workaholic i guess. I dont think anything can give him a sense of fulfillment like work does. But as i always say, money can't drive you v far down the road.

But i do knw that interest and passion can.
I've always heard that if you can imagine and seeing yourself as someone or doing the things that you want to do, it's actually possible, that is if you work hard enough for it.
I CAN SEE IT. I mean, i'd like to believe i can be it too you know.
Rly need to work doubly hard and gain confidence. That's like half the battle won. Ok, shall not waste my time on this useless space anymore.

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