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CZT More than anything else. For all the lost words trapped between my teeth and underneath my tongue  |
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20110117     **       This week is over too soon for it's own good. I've been doing as much as i can (i think) to maximise the amount of time spend w the boy during his one wk of block leave. It's just too bad that that's all i could do as i can't exactly make time stop nor make it go slower. So tmr is the start of another whole new journey for him and me as well. He'll be taken to a whole new level of physical training and mental tortures and of how a boy becomes a man while in a totally new environment. I, on the other hand will have to learn how to endure this new sort of distance and absence again. Is it possible for anyone to feel my sian-ness? Perhaps i shld focus on other things like how to stop spending and save more money. Given that rainy days pretty much constitute Singapore's weather nowadays. Need to work my ass off but sometimes i really can't help hating work of any sort. It scares me so much because work is what we're born to do and it is actually the source of our survival and as i hate it now, i fear how i keep myself alive in future. Alternatively, i could just worry and die thinking about my A level results now that i know it is going to be released somewhere btwn 3rd-7th March. Or worry about my weight like every girl does be it in the closet or in the open? Since i'm a Virgo and i have the perfect excuse for th tendency to worry alot and even overdo it? And no, i dont buy that new star sign bs. I'll never believe im anything else except a Virgo seriously. How can i ever be a Leo? |