CZT
More than anything else.
For all the lost words trapped between my teeth and underneath my tongue

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Can't believe that im saying this but i am no longer able to take anything <8 hrs of sleep.
As of 1114, i am already tired like hell. Perhaps it's the post camp effect or the fact that my sleep debt hasnt been repaid yet.

& that was only the first camp that i've been to. Honestly didnt know what i was thinking when i signed up for 3 more other camps and burnt a hole in my pocket today.
In between all the school activities, i'm also going for my final trip to HK before the term starts. Like i said on Twitter, July is definitely 100% jam packed and i just hope that there would be some breathing space left for me and time to squeeze in for my loved ones. 

I hope this enthusiasm that i am currently displaying for a whole new chapter of my life is not ephemeral like how it was during my college years, where i slink away in just barely half a year.
There's going to be a whole lot of new faces, whole lot of challenges that are gonna be demanding and requiring independence. I just hope i don't get lost along the way and lose sight of the end picture. I mean this is my last shot. I still feel sour sometimes when i realised that i can't get to do what i really want while i watch others get it, easily or not.
I'm not complaining but it's human nature to always strive for the better, am i not right? When you're rich, you wish you were richer. When you have an iPhone 3, you wish you had an iPhone 4. You get the gist.

Oh well. Tmr will be my final driving lesson before i'm in for the real thing.
Blocking out all expectations and negative thoughts. Time for bed.

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