CZT
More than anything else.
For all the lost words trapped between my teeth and underneath my tongue

This pretty much sums up the whole of last wk and this mon.

First, it saw me reuniting w my very first friends made in TJ. Honestly, i wouldnt have thought i would break out of my shell but im glad i did. Even though we sort of parted ways somewhere along this 2 years, getting to know the 2 of em (okay mayb not nut becos we have a "history" *cheeky smiles) during orientation was really something extraordinary :)

Then, there are also these two other girls whom i met in soccer and also hold close to my heart. I dont know how but it just happened. Maybe Starbucks @ Cathay has this magic effect of bringing ppl together or maybe it was just all that squeezing of our pea brains, doing our common subject like Math that brought us this far.

Lastly, how can i forget my most special ones that has been here ever since sec 1 days. What a long way we've come. Most of the memories that i have are w you all now and i hope it doesnt stop anywhere near here. Pl0x?

Did i make you cringe yet? I dont even know where did this come from but it's been so long since ive poured my heart out here. I could continue just so you know, but for now, that's enough.




Still, it cant stop me from missing the love of my life out loud. Hate how this whole seeing each other a day each wk routine works.
I can hate alot of things right now like how i just go back straight home from work on some days and just lay in bed wasting time when all i wanna do is have dinner w someone and go to the places where we use to go even by bus or train, hate how i wanna go here and there but there's no one to accompany me, hate how im so sleepy sometimes but all i wanna do is slp in your arms, hate how i wanna watch a movie so much sometimes but cant find anyone who hasnt/want to watch it becos you've been my movie date most of the time, hate how my heart jumps in excitement seeing HBXX on my phonescreen and this is how far and frequent i can reach you, hate how i hug my bolster imagining it is you and hoping that i can feel the pressure of your arms when you used to wrap them around me. List goes on and on...

I can spend my whole day whining and complaining but at the end of the day, seeing you even for a mere one day, the complaints and hate definitely do become secondary. Well, it is because i know it is not easy for you at all (or shld i say very tough) and am also aware that i bear the same importance to you as you to me when i see you trying your bestest to stay awake after 10pm to make sure you spend more time w me.

I do know what i was getting into.
Not regretting.

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